Yesterday was the day. Another dreaded day. A day that makes me sick to my stomach as I look back on it. I woke up at 2am this morning and I felt like I would be sick and my heart had sank into my stomach.
I met my husband yesterday afternoon to put our beloved little Buddy to sleep. I didn't think it was right for him to do it alone and I wanted to say goodbye also, so I left work early.
Buddy seemed content and happy when I greeted them in the car. He was sitting so good in the front seat by himself. As we took him in, he continued to wag his little tail.
We talked about his cancer and gave him the first medication to calm him down. Except it worked the opposite for him. He wanted to run around, get out, not sit and relax. I had just been thru this a couple of months ago with my first kitty ever(she was 18 years old) and it had been much easier.
And now, here we were with my first ever dog, doing the same thing. And he didn't want to go. And I didn't want him to go either. He was so good, but I felt wasn't ready for this journey. What could I say? It was already decided and in motion. We were only buying time for the inevitable.
And so they gave him the drug to help him pass over. And we started our goodbyes. The vet said he was gone and left the room. We stayed to say goodbye in private. After several minutes, my husband says -he's still breathing. I knew it in my heart. He didn't want to go and I didn't want him to go either.
We brought the vet back in to check and she had to give him another shot. I leaned down only to find a little tear next to his eye.
I'm so sorry Buddy. I loved you so much and I wanted you to stay. Your brother and sister don't know where you are and I don't know how to explain it to them. Today will start the hard day. The routine of feeding without you. Letting them out and trying not to call your name for you to come back in because you're not there. Petie going to lay on our bed without you(he will be so lost).
When I woke up at 2am, I came to the couch to comfort the little ones, but it was me that they comforted. As Petie watches me cry this morning-does he know? Will they think something will happen to them.
Oh God, help me comfort these little ones and get over this huge loss in my heart as these are my little children and it is so difficult.
Goodbye My Mr. Buddy Boy-you were the best dog that I could have ever asked for and I believe in my heart that God did send you to this home when you showed up here one day almost 10 years ago. We had wanted a dog so bad and you showed me how to love like I had never loved before. I'll be thinking of you in Heaven playing with Miss Kitty and Tater, and Mama, and of course, Bulls-Eye. Have fun until I can join you at the Pearly Gates!
Well here's the other half of the 3rd load(I posted some of it on the Shabby Pink blog). I just love that round table. The top is really bad so I am going to peel it off and paint it. I've got a few other pieces that this would look great with. The million dollar crate will hold some of my bottles and that chair will look great with a pumpkin on it! Gettin ready for fall! I couldn't resist that retro purse for only $ .10 and the aluminum cake carrier is really neat-it says cake on the other side!
Anyway-I had a great weekend-since I don't get to go much anymore and it's getting later in the year and there won't be many more to shop at!
Well I went back to the same sale Friday morning where I got the first load and scored everything except the huge pumpkin. I plan to recover the little chairs to something really cute and sell it at the barn sale and I think the red window will look great with pumpkins around it at the barn. I plan to keep the huge pumpin head though-for something to give my nieces and nephew to use at Halloween!
I forgot to show you the smaller stuff I got at the same time. Just a few odds and ends-but I love all of it. I don't need anymore dishes or glasses-but I can't seem to pass them up. Hope you have a Great Weekend and find some fun Stuff!
Well I don't get much of a chance to go bargain hunting anymore-but I did score some cool things this week. I'm already planning for fall and these items will go great either at the Barn sale or at my house-haven't decided yet. Have a Great Weekend-Happy Hunting!
I'm so glad to be done with this (Barn Sale I mean). It's been a long, tiring 3 days. I mostly set up and tear down every day by myself (with a little help from my husband) and I'm really tired and sore. I'm not sure if I could do another three days in a row again. Most of my vacation's been getting ready and doing this and I'm ready for the weekend-to go camping!!!! Cause I wanna be with ...... This This and this!
What's really important!!!! They grow up too fast and I rarely get to spend any quality time with them- and camping is the best form of quality time-no TV or outside interruptions-just FUN time! (And of course-Good eating!)
I'm having a 3 day Sale since I'm on vacation. The weather has been great and I've seen several new customers. I decided to try and place an ad in our local paper for a couple of those days and hoping that it will bring new people and awareness to Ella Mae's Barn! Here's my white Wednesday pic!
My husband's sister, Nancy and friend, Doug came by to visit and shop and Eric took them over to see the house. We had a fun time! I'm joining White Wednesday at http://fadedcharmcottage.blogspot.com/
The campground that we stayed at had this bouncy house for the kids to play in on Sunday. They only got to play for a couple of minutes though cause we were packed and ready to pull out. The bouncy has had originally been planned for Saturday which would have been great fun all day long. It was difficult to get the kids to come out after only a few minutes. Here's the girls looking out-I don't know how I didn't get one of my nephew-maybe he's just too fast! How high can you jump?
I love this little carrier with jelly jars. It's a fun little piece to use for candles or cut flowers.
In this carrier I just use random bottles. I love the different shapes. I keep it on my side porch and fill it with different picked flowers when companies coming. I'm joining Silver Sunday at http://thegypsyfish.blogspot.com/
I've been wanting to show pictures of our back porch for a while. These were taken in the morning so it's not to sunny back here yet, but you can get the idea of the length of it. It's kind of a walk thru to get in the back of our house, but also a nice area to sit and read or entertain people. I've put candles and lamp to add just a little soft light.
15 windows of lace curtains that blow in the breeze.
I even have a child's antique wicker rocker. My husband has one entire wall covered in farm and household tools.