I've decided to feature My Grandma -Ella Mae- on both blogs today. I really haven't felt much like blogging lately. I'm getting tired of the simple posts-just showing items -I feel like my blog has no real meaning-un-inspiring-and boring. This post is not meant to totally change that-but I did have some revelations yesterday. You see-I can admit this-I'm basically a selfish person-always have been. I've never wanted children-didn't want anyone to stand up with me at my wedding-I've always looked out for #1-me.
When my Grandma went in the nursing home a few months ago(she got out-went home-only to return again) I decided that I needed to make an effort to go and see her more. I'd go thru the town she's in twice a day when she was home and never go and visit-selfish with my time(our greatest commodity these days). I didn't even call much.
I've had people close to me die before, but I've been thinking for some time I didn't want to have any regrets with her. I'm not the kind of person to cry(I think I may have only cried twice in 17 years). I internalize things and maul them around and ponder them (that's why Tete is so Great-she's the best friend for understanding and clarity and listening-I love you Tete!!).
Yesterday when I was at the nursing home-I saw myself in those people-we're all going to get old. It's scary-makes you think about things. One-Life is short and you need to take every opportunity to make yourself and others happy-your memories will be what matters in the end!
Two-Love matters-I'll explain what I saw yesterday.....
My Grandma was seated next to a lady who just continually rambled to herself(my Grandma's tiny voice said to me-she cusses a lot). I tried to listen to what she was saying-but couldn't make heads or tails out of it, except for the name George. We had to wait a long time for the meal to come-so I entertained Grams(she told me that the day before she had yelled out-Ella Waggle is Hungry-I can see her doing that!). I painted her nails-a glittery pink- and we sprayed her hair this lovely pink that everyone commented on and stared out(she loved that-she was the talk of the nursing home and stood out among all the white hairs!). Back to the lady(didn't get her name)-after a while and much gibberish from her-a man came in to feed her-must have been George her husband. One of the staff brought George his own plate of food and told him that they would take care of him. He was gentle and kind to her. Very quiet man-but he did tell me that they'd had a party earlier in the day with cookies(he must have been there for that too!) All I can say is LOVE!!!!!
Thirdly -I know this post has been long-People working together-I see the kindness in this nursing home-I'm glad she's there-they really try to make it special for people-one staff member reading trivia-last week they had in line dancers-I took my Grams -and she really enjoyed it!
Anyway-the big reveal-She did tell me I could do this-Anything to put a smile on her face-I told her -next time Grams-it may be a tattoo-
YOU'RE NEVER TOO OLD FOR NEW EXPERIENCES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
For more check out http://shabbypinkworld.blogspot.com/2011/02/valentines-to-remember.html
I'm joining Rednesday at http://suelovescherries.blogspot.com/2011/02/rednesday-valentines-and-robin.html
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